Alone in Company

Having a rough time of it lately. Time flows like rain, and I don't even know it's passing until it's gone...I'll be 40 before I even have a degree, & then what? No friends, to speak of...at least any I see regularly. It's a loneliness one never gets used to, hence the name of this rather directionless blog. But...at least I'm in school again, & if I can't vampirize some energy from some of these young louts around me then what kind of Man would I be? Surround myself with inspiration, listen to the conversation of youth, and feel renewed, right? No...because what I see is the same inane drivel again and again and again; not that there's anything wrong with these people, but everything seems like a rerun, and I'm tired. The Preacher was right: There's nothing new under the Sun, or over it either, I imagine. With much knowledge does come much sorrow...and I can't push it back and just "be" like other people...not now. What to do? Who the hell knows, but I'll think about it and rant some more on it later.